- The Road -

Forgone Emotions;

Self Disenchantment

~ The Final Valediction ~

Monday - 290609

Adam Lambert - No Boundaries

Ohh
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone

I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams

They take you by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up everything
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries



*Here I dedicate this song to you ghetto punk, another song that reminds me of everything that we have been through*

Can't Wait

Perhentian Island !!

I can't wait. It's another grueling 17days! Gosh I need more time....

4 days 3 nights of freedom, of relaxation, of serenity and away from the hustle bustles of city. Listening to the waves, feeling the breeze, having a music player playing melodic beach tunes that soothes the ears and soul.

A getaway with a great group of friends and more importantly, with her. Ahhh... relaxation & tranquility.

Cast away all sadness, all worries, all daily hastles AND enjoy, relish and savor every moment of joy with the ones we love. Life is beautiful but it is too short, appreciate what is in store and abandon all trivial and inconsequential setbacks.

HELLO BEAUTIFUL AND GOODBYE AWFUL!!

Cheers All

88th

She loves me, she loves my family, she loves every dogs and cats even those by roadsides, she loves genuinely without asking for anything, she has a heart so big it can fill the whole world in, she educated me well, showed me a path where no other human can, she gave me love no one else can top and all said and done, she gave me her wisdom and passed on her dreams.

She’s an angel that will never break my heart,

A guardian I know will always salvage me from the deepest void I fall,

A lover whom I know will never leave me,

A friend whom I know will never turn her back on me.

She’s the love of my life, my world and my life in literal. A woman that has done so much in her life and no other can come close to her.

My Grandmother

She single handedly grew 12 kids, two sons and two daughters, one nephew, seven grandchildren. My grandfather left at the age of 50 leaving her with nothing but just a wrecked traditional Chinese medicine shop which is confirmed to close down and then it did. She then worked and saved to send one son to Singapore and one daughter, London to pursue their studies. The other two stayed back to help her out.

Then came the seven grandsons which gave her endless headaches for being notorious, rebellious, naughty, cheeky, and defiant. She still stood by us through everything, taught us how it is to be a person. To love others as she has loved us, To treat others well as how she has treated us, To not judge others by possessions and their behavior. A knowledge she passed on down to me, everybody is equal. Some sums up in monetary possessions but lack of personality, the other sums up in personality but lack of possessions, some ugly and some good looking but in the end we all make it up to what we lack. It’s a balance of life.

The thing I am still learning from her till this very day is to love, to love everyone around us, to love everything around us. To appreciate each and every single moment and to never be selfish. She has such a big warm heart that loves every person to animals. During her younger days, she will wake up early in the morning to cook some food and head down to the market where she will feed every stray dogs and cats. She forgave me after all my disrespect for her in my younger more defiant days.

She calls me her stupid crazy grandson, I tell her if it’s not for you I won’t be like this. She calls me dirty stupid tortoise, I said she’s a bigger one!

Last but never least, “AH MAH, HOH SEH BO??!!!”

I stand here, wishing you the very best health life can give and the longest most prosperous days in life. Happy 88^th Birthday my love. You are the best, and you rock on!!!! Without you, I will have no shelter and have no education and will never be who I am today.

*She will most definitely kill me if she sees these pictures up* hohooo

Thank you with all my heart and all my life.

I on behalf of all us grandsons promise to excel in everything we do.

We all love you.

The Magician/Magus

I recently developed another habitual reading thanks to this one person. It became a norm of waking up and the 1^st thing I do after smoking would be to log on my laptop and check my signs, both numerology and astrology. I honestly have never been the type to read things of such, I guess after all it just amuses me. I don’t take them seriously but just to see how accurate would it be. Heh.

My card today says;

The Magus
The Magus is the master of his own destiny and unafraid to act as he chooses. By setting specific and attainable goals, the Magician utilizes his great knowledge and wisdom to succeed where others have failed. He is the master of his own destiny. Although, with such power comes great responsibility. The Magician must decide whether to act morally, or forsake ethics for personal gain.

*Canggih the gila!!*

Then again now, after Freedom 09’ I am looking forward to another trip which would be this weekend back home. To a place where my tummy feels comfortable, to a place where I bitch endlessly due to the heat in my house, to a place where I grew up with the love of my life ‘my grandmother’ for her Big Big 88^th birthday!

Also after this weekend, Perhentian Island here I come baby!!! 2^nd till the 5^th of July but of course before that I will have a lot at hand to do, mainly based on self development and bank balance to turnaround and make it upward spiral. I have to fluctuate it high for good, endless tumultuous changes is just not fun.

Freedom 09'

Freedom 09’

Day 1

Got to Melacca after a freaking 1 hour 40 minute drive due to congested slow moving traffic at 90kmph. Got to Melacca at half past 10 and then straight to the bungalow, got ourselves changed and drink drank drunk before hitting the rave as it was rather stupid for not having alcohol sold in it.

It was 15 to 1am by the time we got to the rave thinking that it would end by 3am AT LEAST but sadly, it ended at 2am. All was querulous of the time it ended, also a bottle of mineral water was RM7. Pretty much a throat slitter. Then again the light and sound effects were godly, last year’s Freedom set up was awesome itself but this year seriously it’s just not vindicatory but the crowd was rather rowdy, filled 75% of the rave with what we label them “Ma Chans”.

A noticeable crowd of hot chics and hunks were only of our group and yes, I proudly proclaim that! I am proud of my group as they work hard, party harder and live lives to the utmost excitement. Hehe.

Me and Mi

Wee, Mi and Marc

Rock on Ya'll

Note my shirt and our pose

Though the rave ended early but then again it was not an indication that OUR party ended. We headed back home with the free shuttle service provided by the organizers of the rave and continued raving in our bungalow, blasting the awesome stereo system provided by Joh and music by Yu Meng. Drank and partied mad like homeless people going berserk on free food provided. Lasted till 7am!! Maybe some may say they can last longer, some may say we’re mad but all in all we drank till minds were lost, sanity gone astray.

Day 2

Woke up around 12ish to Joh cleaning the house and Marc’s endless phone calls, not knowing Joh is such a clean freak he literally cleaned the whole house which was a disastrous sight to even look at. Bah.

So there we were, waking up to it and the 1^st drink I had was… a can of beer with Yums. Headed then down to Melacca for lunch and did a wee bit of grocery shopping which in the end was not consumed.

Went back to the bungalow and started our party this time by the pool, many were reluctant to enter the pool at 1^st because of the leaves which made them think it was dirty. It was however overloaded with chlorine that makes the skin wrinkly even after only 2 minutes being in it. Allan portrayed a water world sea lion and so did Joh, amusing indeed! Music was pumped and again thanks to a comfortable crowd of sea lions and attempting swimmers, everyone had a good laugh.

Yums water squirting lesson

Great smiles

Headed then off to the rave earlier this time around half 10 after our very own pool party, the moment we stepped foot in we ran over to the SkyRider for a twist.

Above & Beyond was the paramount of the night, unsurpassed by any other DJs in the rave. Even Ferry Corsten whom I adored was not anywhere close to the divine sounds of Above & Beyond. Music thumping, bass pumping and people screaming like headless chickens. Again, the lighting was spectacular. Being there closing your eyes, lifting your hands up high letting the music sip in and take control of the soul and the cheers from the crowd to give a heightened state of trance. Again the rave ended at 2am, this time we headed back to the bungalow and sat down by the pool for only a short bit then everyone was too tired to do anything anymore. I on the other hand shot back to KL at 5.30am due to certain discomfort. Heh. Thanks to my trustable good friend Marc, I was able to retrieve my car. Thanks bro.

Then again all in all, the rave was an alright one but the fun back in our bungalow was memorable. I guess after all, it is the crowd that you mix with that makes even the worst events the best. I thank Marc for all help given throughout in many ways. You’re a brother.

Cheers all